A small step (F/M)
Posted: Tue Sep 29, 2020 1:47 pm
Hello all!
In my first post here I stated that I had no experience with bondage and asked if I will be able to participate in that fetish regardless of my anxiety.
I had started to see a domme to explore my foot fetish a little bit and to learn to accept and talk about my desires. Even though she is very gentle, open and knows about my fears, I couldn't talk as openly as I would have liked.
Showing her my story was the best decision i could have made, because I simply couldn't speak about bondage/tickling while seeing in her eyes.
At the next session she noticed I had a good day and offered me to tie my hands behind my back using a bondage belt. In that moment I didn't thought much and accepted, it was really nice. It really feels nice to be able to trust someone enough, to lay back depending on them.
So I laid on my stomach with my arms tied to my back and my head bent to the right. She covered my face with her nylon feet and simply let me be for a few minutes. I'm normally extremly nervous, but I really relaxed there cuddeling her feet with my face.
Without much warning she stood up and started to tickle my sides softly. She gave me no time to be afraid and I really enjoyed the sensation.
It really wasn't much, if I wanted I could have freed myself at any time and she tickled really softly to not overwhelm me, but that experience showed me that I can relax with someone I trust and my anxiety is not hindering me too much.
This are my first steps in accepting myself and to be more confident arround women. It's a long way for me to start dating for real, but at least a part of that way I will have help and I'm happy about that.
Thanks for reading and have a nice day!
Ps: She did take a few photos of me that session, so I can fully review what happend in the safety of my room. I won't post them here, but I really treasure them.
In my first post here I stated that I had no experience with bondage and asked if I will be able to participate in that fetish regardless of my anxiety.
I had started to see a domme to explore my foot fetish a little bit and to learn to accept and talk about my desires. Even though she is very gentle, open and knows about my fears, I couldn't talk as openly as I would have liked.
Showing her my story was the best decision i could have made, because I simply couldn't speak about bondage/tickling while seeing in her eyes.
At the next session she noticed I had a good day and offered me to tie my hands behind my back using a bondage belt. In that moment I didn't thought much and accepted, it was really nice. It really feels nice to be able to trust someone enough, to lay back depending on them.
So I laid on my stomach with my arms tied to my back and my head bent to the right. She covered my face with her nylon feet and simply let me be for a few minutes. I'm normally extremly nervous, but I really relaxed there cuddeling her feet with my face.
Without much warning she stood up and started to tickle my sides softly. She gave me no time to be afraid and I really enjoyed the sensation.
It really wasn't much, if I wanted I could have freed myself at any time and she tickled really softly to not overwhelm me, but that experience showed me that I can relax with someone I trust and my anxiety is not hindering me too much.
This are my first steps in accepting myself and to be more confident arround women. It's a long way for me to start dating for real, but at least a part of that way I will have help and I'm happy about that.
Thanks for reading and have a nice day!
Ps: She did take a few photos of me that session, so I can fully review what happend in the safety of my room. I won't post them here, but I really treasure them.
